Running. Running. Running.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007


Been so long since i've posted. The whole history thing hasn't blown over yet. Well, not much of a surprise really.

Actually, i was even thinking of apologizing to her first. Yet something in me refused to do so. It told me to wait and wait.

Been thinking about the person I used to be...and the person I am now. I can't say that secondary school has done wonders to my personality, but it has certainly altered it. I don't feel as weak as before. I don't cry after everything bad that happens. I've learnt to bottle everything up and cry like mad when I get home.

Oh, did you notice? There's no such thing as "cute" in secondary school. There's only something called "act cute".

Sheesh. Like...what have they been teaching these girls?

Or for another matter, what have they been teaching me?

I feel like...i'm being swayed by these people. They cloud my judgement of others and instill nothing but utter rubbish, jealousy and dislike in me.

So I asked Frank something about my personality. (Man...I can't remember what. ><) He said it was okay. I was less 'explosive' emotionally and all. Like...my emotions don't go running haywire everywhere in one go. He also told me that he thought I was crazy when we first talked.

So I glared at him. xD (well...almost. I was joking with him.)

I feel a certain amount of dislike towards myself now. I don't know how I can ignore this ugly feeling.

Maybe I do despise myself in a sense. Yet i believe that i'm not all that bad.

After all, I'm not only made up of Freya.

Sakura is still in me...

somewhere.
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Artist: Green Day
Song title: Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father has come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast

wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
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This song is dedicated to all who feels that they've lost their way of life (or 'in' life). I hope that you guys would smile always...

cuz i'll smile with you when you do.


12:32 AM i need you.

{The Mistress of Hell}

Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD

{Faves/Desires/Wishes}

-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"

{Vengeance will be served}


{People from hell}

Ning -My beloved guardian +
Geelyn -Illusioned existance +
Min -Forever Friends +
Li sen -Kind at heart +
Frank -The guy who posts once a month. +
Feifei -A dearest cousin +
Daniel -^^ +
Jiale(a.k.a Jade) -A precious friend +
Hannah -She called me the 'dark side'. xD +
Eleanor(a.k.a Elie) -A precious friend +

{Memories...}

March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
October 2007
November 2007
January 2008
March 2008
May 2009

{Credits}

Codes: Dynamic Drive
Image: deviantART
Layout: kaifengxDD