Understanding.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Over the weekend, I have come to understand many things. Like for example, how fragile the bonds of humans can be. People can be forgotten easily. One day someone could replace your place in that person's heart, just like that.
Best friends...lovers...Anybody. Anything.
If another girl treats your lover well and you don't, she'll replace you in his heart. If you don't keep in contact with your best friend, even the strongest feelings would fade over time. At that point, I started to feel sad. Maybe people are replacing me quicker than I would expect. I'm just wondering how easy it is for them to forget someone like me.
Sometimes I face certain people and I feel scared. Cuz they've taken up such an important place in my heart that I'm afraid one day, I'll lose the small, tiny place in their heart that I possess. It's strange right? How humans don't treasure the people around them, but they yearn for someone who would never turn around and give a damn about them. Sometimes, when those people do turn around and smile at me, I feel so happy that I would have cried.
Then I have also learnt that guys are also fragile creatures. They need love too. They just don't express it out. (cuz seriously, it'll look freaky. Haha.) Guys can feel insecure and sad over many stuffs as well, but they keep it all inside and say, "it's nothing." So the girl must be like...telepathic or something. She must be able to sense his pain lol. Like...kinda funny. But isn't that what everyone is searching for?
Being a rather observant person, I can tell when something is wrong with someone. Sometimes, even guys. So they'll give me the surprised and semi-touched look when I ask them whether they're okay.
I have a small small wish.
I want that person to finally treat me like everybody else. I want that person to finally look at me properly in the eye.
Maybe it is too big to ask? But I do hope that this wish would come true one day. Then I can put down the heavy burden that has been hovering over me.
Anyways, something very weird happened today. One of my friend said that Wrathie had called me a 'yuna-wannabe' in one of his sentences when she asked him whether they were the group I was originally with. I got offended and took it the wrong way and became emo for the rest of my school periods. I cleared it up with ning and felt much better; Wrathie didn't mean it in a 'mean' way. In fact, he was like...saying jiayou for me. (to understand, the whole sentence must be read.) I apologized to him and I felt like crying lol. Why did I ever doubt my friends? Maybe cuz my secondary school friends hurt me before and I'm still living a hellish life there, so I'm just stereotyping everybody into the same category.
Wrathie is a nice guy. (deeeeeeep deeeeeep inside. Cuz he's as sadistic as ning on the outside. ;_;)
Oh yeah. I promised you guys this.
Haha. Yuna! xD These are only the rings lol. (Pardon the unusual fatness of my hand in this pic.) I'll have to get another bracelet, plus her necklace and earring. Hehe.
The next photo ish scary. So i shall put up a warning sign.
Caution!: Do not see photo if you have a weak heart towards violence and the squishing of aluminium cans!
My cousin is teh violence. You see the can on the right? It is done by me with both hands. (in a kind-of-ladylike manner.) So it is squished in a so-so manner. The can on the left is done by my cousin. She nearly gave me a heart attack when she picked up her can, stared at me, and squished hers with only her right hand and took like...less than 1 sec to flatten it to that state. MY GOD LOL. VIOLENCE. Ahahahahahaha.
But it's like...damn cool. ;_; I must learn how to do that. It'll scare the crap out of people lol.
Lastly, there is the interclass basketball competition trophy that I got by doing absolutely nothing.
Hahahaha. This is the most nonsensical trophy I have ever gotten. It must have pissed Phyllis off to give it to me. Well. It's not that i didn't contribute. It's just that they were too insecure about sending reserves onto the field. Plus both 3A and our class were playing with VIOLENCE on that day...if you ask me. So I was pretty much stunned as well. (and they call themselves girls? o.O Maybe I shouldn't complain...since my cousin ish scary as well. x.x You know...the can squishing thing.)
Alrighty. I wanna go sleep. I have another long day tomorrow.
Also, for the sake of everybody, I've decided to become the best yuna ever! I'll put in even MORE AND MORE effort from now on. (My friend said that she respects me LOL. Cuz I do intensive research and watch videos to adapt to the personality and stuff.)
See ya! ^^
7:33 AM i need you.
Cosplaying
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Yesterday I went out with ning. We went to...uh...Bugis! To like...check out stuff and all. =D
Yes...it was unbearable hot and crowded, but we got what we wanted in the end. I bought two simple silver rings for $20 and ning got her yuffie-lookalike-pants plus wristband. It was kinda cool. I mean...searching for stuff like that. o.O we found lots of weird places lol. And the place where we got the pants, the shop helper guy was extremely helpful. He saw the pictures and figured that we wanted to cosplay and needed the clothes lol. But sadly...we couldn't find her yuffie-jacket. I was told that it used to be on sale, but it's sold out alrdy.
We couldn't find anything for rikku...but i guess there's no need to rush.
After all, this is the first time we're doing this and i'm kinda excited. Haha.
Then ning treated me to ice-cream! Kyaaaaaaaa~! I was so happy lol. (That was probably one of the sweetest ice-cream I've ever eaten.)
We walked till we nearly died. (And I was late in getting home.) Ning said she found the yuna's necklace thingy. But I felt that I should go and see whether it was worth it before buying.
My playstation 2 is now safely back at home, fixed and in a good condition! Hurrah!
During the night, I went for a wedding dinner. It's someone from my father's side. Supposingly some elder cousin of mine. The coolest part was, the bride and bridegroom are called "Jarral and Jaraldine" respectively. O.O woah. Like...talk about fate. Either they gave each other the same names or they are destined to marry each other. The bride was pretty~
Then something embarrassing happened.
Because my mum felt that i needed to socialize, she told my aunt to drag (yes drag.) me to the other table where all the other kids are, and make me socialize. Unable to refuse, I had to follow her. =.= (But also cuz i noticed a sorta-cute guy...no wait. that wasn't the main reason. I swear. ^^") When I got there, they introduced everybody to me...except for the person whom I have never met before and I thought as 'good-looking'.
So I did the stupidest thing ever. I looked at my cousin (somehow playfully) and I said, "Who is he? Your boyfriend arh?"
She freaked out and shook her head vigorously. "Nono...peng2 you2 er2 yi3." (Translated: Nono...just a friend only.)
Well well. Silly me thought that she was being embarrassed and shy. So I semi-smiled and nodded. When I walked away, my aunt nudged me and whispered darkly, "You wan die arh? Ask that kind of question." (okay...so maybe she didn't say it like this, but the gist of it is like that.)
I went, "Huh?"
"That one is a girl."
WTH. WTH. WTH. I went like....several blushes of red before returning to normal then pale.
A GIRL!?!?!?!?!
ZOMG.
LIKE...AM I SO BLIND THAT I CAN'T EVEN TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A GIRL AND A GUY!?!?!?!
So I stared at the girl/guy person for like...a few seconds. Hair...yup, like a guy. Shirt and pants were baggy... Every single thing points to that person being a guy.
But NO. She's a girl.
I had a shock of my life. This isn't the first time this has happened. (and it happened within a week!)
The first time I mistook a girl for a guy was during cosfest. I saw a girl cosplaying as Kira (and yes, she looked damn hawt. x.x Definitely more so than the other guys.) and I thought that she was a guy. Until, someone gave me a reality check and I realized that 'he' was, in fact, a 'she'.
I nearly fainted.
Is this an impending sign of doom that I have lost my sense of 'who's a guy and who's a girl' and that I may be bisexual?
(I'm joking. Don't take me seriously.)
But yeah. I did get a shock.
Then I realized. (yes, once again.)
My definition of good-looking people are mostly, what we call, "Pretty Boys".
No, not the gay types. But the slightly femine (AS IN LOOKS. Not behaviour.) and cool kind of guys.
I'm doomed. That means I'll either turn lesbian or like...have sickeningly high standards.
(once again, I'm joking about the lesbian part. I'm just still in shock.)
Hmm. I'll continue this post later. I need to go my work first. I'll post the pictures of my rings next time~
See ya ppl. ^^
4:05 AM i need you.
A new image (for my blog)
Friday, July 6, 2007
I've decided to put more pics into my blog to make it livelier.
After all, don't you guys get sick of only seeing words!?
Emo ones too...to be exact. xD
I'll throw in a dash of music as well.
Still finding the nicest songs though...
Haha. I'm obssessed with Japanese songs. x.x
By the way...Anybody played 'Tales of the Abyss'?
Kyaaaaaaa~! Isn't Asch just so hawt? He even looks hawt when he dies! Like wat the hell. x.x In fact, many people were saying that he looked the hawtest when he died!
Damn. Why must the hot people always die early? =.=
And though I liked Luke too...but I kinda liked Asch better...(cuz he's the kind of 'cool-and-badass-but-kind-on-the-inside' type of guy. Which...i wonder why they appeal to me so much. =.=)why must Luke be the only one who comes back!? ><
His death has traumatized me.
See? Here's a picture of the both of them. Luke ish the one of the left and Asch is the one on the right. Trust me, Asch looks hotter when he lets his fringe down...(which he rarely does so, btw.) For those who doesn't know about the story, Luke is actually a replica of Asch, that's why they look so alike. (when they have the same length of hair and both let their fringes down.)
I wish that I could find the pic of Asch when he died. Then you can see how hawt he really is. x.x
Kyaaaaaaaa~! Another hot guy. x.x I dunno which anime he's from, but I would sure like to know! Anybody got any ideas?
Oh yeah. Tomorrow is the first day of the Cosfest! So cool...Wrathie is going and he offered to bring me along. ^^ I didn't really expect him to do so...(what a nice guy lol.) But then...I've got to go to Malaysia with my mum...so I can't make it.
It's okay though. =) I'll be going with ning next sat and sun. I'm so excited! Finally my first Cosfest! xD I didn't get a costume...so I won't be dressing up...but I'm sure that watching others would be cool enough!
Plus, I wanna see Wrathie in his costume. =X
Man...it's late! x.x I'll continue posting soon, but I better go to bed now.
See ya later people!
P.S: I would be adding a wishlist and a music playlist later on.
9:56 AM i need you.