I swore I could almost hear him saying that to me.
I remember crying and writing a lot of stuff into a single post last night. Yet I didn't post it in the end. I suppose that it would simply make me take the same kind of hatred as her.
Hm...hatred breeds more hatred. So let's stop the hating.
Many ppl asked me to clarify with her and clear the misunderstanding. Yet I think I also need some 'cool-down' time. Maybe I'm just fed up and stuff.
So much emotional slapping in just one night. Being made to remember awful things which I've done five years ago. Non-stop.
Not gonna continue the thing though. I somehow see no point in it now.
Probably practically the whole school would hate me tomorrow. ^^" But I don't think I can do anything about it. I was once taught that as long as you stand up for what you think is right, it's okay. So I guess I owe her no explaination and the truth would somehow reveal itself one day.
We're too alike. So much so that we can actually hurt each other so easily.
I almost did something that would have killed us both last night. Thank god...Ning, joanie, frank and my mum were there to stop the madness that took over me.
I'm sorry, min. I don't know if you're reading this...but I never forgot what I did to you five years ago. It's been with me ever since and I don't think I'll ever forgive myself. Even if you already forgave me.
Well. I guess that wraps everything all up. (Except for the fact that I'm a hypocritical, selfish and mean girl.)
Nah. Just joking. Hope I didn't freak you guys out.
Remember: Live and Repent.
So that's probably what I have to do. ___________________________________________________________________
This is a song for you guys ^^ :
Artist: Staind Lyrics Song: So Far Away
This is my life Its not what it was before All these feelings I’ve shared And these are my dreams That I’d never lived before Somebody shake me Cause I, I must be sleeping
(chorus) Now that we're here, It's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All the mistakes, One life contained They all finally start to go away Now that we're here its so far away And I feel like I can face the day I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
These are my words That I’ve never said before I think I’m doing ok And this is the smile That I’ve never shown before
Somebody shake me Cause I, I must be sleeping
(chorus) Now that we're here, It's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All the mistakes, One life contained They all finally start to go away Now that we're here its so far away And I feel like I can face the day I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today
I'm so afraid of waking Please don't shake me Afraid of waking Please don't shake me
(chorus) Now that we're here, It's so far away All the struggle we thought was in vain All the mistakes, One life contained They all finally start to go away Now that we're here its so far away And I feel like I can face the day I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today ___________________________________________________________________
Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD
{Faves/Desires/Wishes}
-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"