The play we watched on Friday was nice. A midnight summer's dream by Shakesphere. The last part got me laughing really hard.
Wow. I sound plastic today. O.O
Anyways...Some people really dressed up like mad that day. Scary...they were all aiming to impress! ^^ I suppose I was kinda impressed by some...but others...well...
Let's just say that it's easier to impress people when you suddenly transformed from 'normal' to 'beautiful' in one night than when you are constantly trying to impress people.
Yup. Yup.
I feel much more happier these two days. Maybe because I need not care about all the school stuff. You know...all the weird weird bad luck thing.
Oh yeah! Hannah and Eleanor taught me lots of things about life (somehow) during the time I've spent with them. For example, Eleanor taught me that "we must always stay positive because the world is negative. So our positivity would cancel out the negativity of the world". (or something like that. ^^")
Wow. I figure she's kinda right.
Then during Friday, on our way to the play, Hannah was standing beside me in the MRT and she put her face to the glass on the window of the door for a second before turning to me and saying, "Have you realized something?"
I blinked. "Realized what?"
"Hm...like how we can only truly see ourselves when we're in darkness." She pointed to our reflection in the glass and smiled. "See? When you're in darkness, you can see 'yourself' clearly, but when light comes..."
Then the MRT passed by some advertisement boards that were lit up in the tunnel and our reflection disappeared.
"You won't be able to see yourself clearly."
I was, of course, stunned. How did she know this much? "Wow. That's some deep thinking there." I commented, while in partial disbelief.
"Nah. I take the MRT to tuition often, so I spend my time thinking about things." She laughed and gestured to the window pane.
Well, I don't think the conversation was so...'elegant' in a way like this. (I can't remember every single word perfectly...you know.) But this was the gist of it. I guessed I learned something that day.
In life, we tend to lose ourselves a lot. Most of the time it happens when we think that we're living in a peaceful or 'correct' way of life. But when the darkness closes in, we tend to see the darkest side of our personality. The most amazing thing about hatred is that it can transform you quite easily into some kind of demon or monster with its presence. You become blinded and you lose yourself.
You'll hurt people.
I just saw my darkest side that day. I figured that if I really used it to my full advantage, I would really be able to hurt someone real bad. But I was scared as well. If that person cried or got hurt really badly, would I be happy? Plus, what would become of me?
A soul lost in eternal darkness. Never knowing the light or the truth about redemption.
I bet some people don't know about this: There's a mirror in the darkness. When you're all alone and you stare into it, you'll see the true you. (oh wait. I mentioned this earlier. ^^" Oh well.) If you're blinded by rage and anger, all you'll see if someone whose face is so distorted that he or she is impossible to be recognized.
It's ugly. (and not to mention scary.)
I saw my reflection in that way once. I never ever want to see it ever again.
Anyways...I don't know what to write suddenly. O.O
Blogger's block? Haha.
While listening to the song, Aozora no Namida, I was searching for the lyrics. But since I can't find it, I decided to write some lyrics of my own according to the song.
Here goes: (><)
Sitting all alone in the darkness... I was searching for a light that I couldn't see. Running against the flow of time... I don't see anybody waiting at the end for me.
No matter how hard I scream... The wind does not convey my thoughts to anybody. I need to get a grip on myself and move on.
I wonder what lies ahead? The path that has been set for me. I thought I saw someone beside me... But they just vanished. Like shadows, they appear to tell me that I have to believe in myself.
I can feel the tears of those people Calling out to me.
I always thought that I'm alone in this world I only trusted myself... And refused to let other people see the real me.
But as I grow and start to understand... Everybody became there for me. I just needed to remember the times we've spent together And not forget them.
I wonder what lies ahead? On the path that has been set for me. I think I know now, but I'm just afraid to take the step forward. However, it is time to change.
Let's turn the sadness into smiles And banish the darkness with the light
And when the path ends... I want to be there with them.
Argh! Serious blogger's block. x.x I can't write properly anymore. So the ending is a little crappy. I'll edit that part when i'm feeling better.
Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD
{Faves/Desires/Wishes}
-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"