Why? Cuz I didn't go for the basketball interclass.
I'm sad and I'm disappointed. I really wanted to join and win.
It's a long story though... and I don't want to badmouth anybody. So let's drop it.
I've realized that I've been harsh to somebody today. Well, I was feeling quite easily pissed today and it totally throws off my balance of life. So I totally returned all the crap to that person.
Maybe I'm sorry? Maybe I'm not?
Muahahaha.
You should know that I enjoyed that little moment of indirect harshness.
Hell, I'm so mean. XD
Well, after what I've been put through, you should understand why. Life is a total piece of crap that is wrapped in a sugar coating and chocolate. It'll still taste like crap no matter how nice it looks.
Sooo...just let me be the bad guy for today. I'm sick of taking all the stupid things they throw at me.
If you think I'm acting really terrible and all, I'll just laugh at you. Hahahahahaha.
People push me to the edge and I survive with just the little space at the edge before I turn around and bite them.
I want to live. I want to be treated fairly. I want to let them know that I'm no pushover.
I may be nice usually, but I can be really mean if I wanted to.
I am a human. So you can start treating me with the basic respect that I deserve as a person.
I may be quiet usually, but I have my pride.
Oh...plus by careful observation of some of the people in my school, I've realized that they're either careless or irresponsible. I mean...they may not mean it usually, but they really got to be more careful.
But others... oh ho ho ho.
They can be so freakin irresponsible that you wonder how you got to know these people in the first place. I suppose that responsibility is always suppressed by the urge for self-satisfaction and the need to be selfish, but people shouldn't do it so often. It irks the hell out of people.
Yup. Yup.
Anyways. I always wanted to be nice to someone. But ever since what she did to me today, I somehow don't see the need to be that nice to her anymore. I mean, don't worry...I'll give her the basic respect. But I won't ever treat her nicer than that. In fact, if I feel like it, I might even 'tease' her a little.
Never ever do onto others what you don't want them to do onto you.
It's too late for apologises and yes... I hate you.
Hate is such a strong word, isn't it? =)
It's tiring to hate someone, but I guess she's worth the fun.
I've now officially lost it, with a lot of thanks to my current wonderful social life in school and my wonderful, amazing problems in life. It's time to take some action.
I won't let them get me down. I see no need in allowing them such a satisfaction. =)
I won't forgive. I won't forget.
It's a lesson I've learned in life. =)
I'm going to work much harder now. I'll smile more than them. I'll be much happier.
I know I'll be.
I have a lot of dreams you know. I want much more than they can ever imagine.
I believe that I'm not that naive anymore. So it's time to take matters into my own hands and settle them.
I can do this. Even if I'm left with only some of my primary school friends, I know that I won't ever cry in front of them anymore.
Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD
{Faves/Desires/Wishes}
-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"