Okies...I'm just being insane. This is the first time i'm blogging in ages.
(Also the first time in ages i feel so happy.)
It's great to get away from my school. xD
Well. Everything is like a silent movie nowadays. Nothing's left after things have been done...except the weird feeling that makes you believe that everything is true.
Life is weird. (I like using the word "weird".)
xDDDD
My brain has stopped working.
Oh yeah. Speaking of which...haven't you ever wished that life has a rewind button? This way...you can undo stuff that has happened before. But then again, some stuff should be left alone.
Well, been thinking about things.
And here's the final decision:
I'm truly sorry for whatever i have done to you, HT. I've been thinking of the times when we were still friends, and somehow, it kinda struck me that we make a good pair of insane people. Plus the fact that you've always covered up for me or stuck up for me whenever ppl said nasty things. =X
We were really best friends. ^^
And somehow, though things have changed...(i am no longer part of anybody's gang...x.x) plus the fact that many ppl are out to slit my throat, I've decided that i've been trying to deny and hate that part of me which had decided to proclaim you as one of my extremely good friends.
That ish a big big mistake. I should have never let outsiders come between us and our friendship.
Life has no rewind button, sadly. =\ I can't say, "Let's erase all the hurt that has been done!" and our pain would just go away. I'm stupid for talking about you behind with E. I should have just gone right up to you and said it to your face. Sure, the truth always hurt. But it would be a short term thing. Not like this.
I'm really really sorry. *bows down*
If sorry could solve stuff, I would say it over and over again. If I cried till i drowned the whole block here, I would. (Heck. maybe I already did.)
I don't ask for you to forget...but I would want this to at least reach a resolve. At least...forgiveness and moving on.
I've been really happy to have you as a friend. Sure, sometimes certain things sucked. But then we were still happy.
Same goes for me...After we fell out with each other, I've been hurt so many countless times. I won't forget those times...when people stepped onto me just because i looked easy to bully. But I've forgiven a lot of people. (Hey...forgiving takes time, you know? xD I need some more time to forgive some other ppl.)
But more importantly...though you might not have noticed the indirect hurt you've caused me, (plus the post...x.x god, i can't forget those words on that post.) I've more or less forgiven you as well.
After all, what are friends for? =)
There's nothing to be angry about for too long.
Ahhhh. It's late. I better go to bed.
Anyways. This is my....uh....short apology. x.x" (man, that sounds insincere. But really, I've put all i could think about at 12.30am in the morning into it.)
I'll try to apologize to you (yes, I mean HT. In case my dear readers have *STM like me. x.x) properly when i get the courage to. As in...in your face and all...
I need sleep. This is one crazy post. But i feel like someone just took a stone out of my heart and crushed it on the floor. (yay! No more stone.)
Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD
{Faves/Desires/Wishes}
-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"