Understanding.
Monday, July 30, 2007


Over the weekend, I have come to understand many things. Like for example, how fragile the bonds of humans can be. People can be forgotten easily. One day someone could replace your place in that person's heart, just like that.

Best friends...lovers...Anybody. Anything.

If another girl treats your lover well and you don't, she'll replace you in his heart. If you don't keep in contact with your best friend, even the strongest feelings would fade over time. At that point, I started to feel sad. Maybe people are replacing me quicker than I would expect. I'm just wondering how easy it is for them to forget someone like me.

Sometimes I face certain people and I feel scared. Cuz they've taken up such an important place in my heart that I'm afraid one day, I'll lose the small, tiny place in their heart that I possess. It's strange right? How humans don't treasure the people around them, but they yearn for someone who would never turn around and give a damn about them. Sometimes, when those people do turn around and smile at me, I feel so happy that I would have cried.

Then I have also learnt that guys are also fragile creatures. They need love too. They just don't express it out. (cuz seriously, it'll look freaky. Haha.) Guys can feel insecure and sad over many stuffs as well, but they keep it all inside and say, "it's nothing." So the girl must be like...telepathic or something. She must be able to sense his pain lol. Like...kinda funny. But isn't that what everyone is searching for?

Being a rather observant person, I can tell when something is wrong with someone. Sometimes, even guys. So they'll give me the surprised and semi-touched look when I ask them whether they're okay.

I have a small small wish.

I want that person to finally treat me like everybody else. I want that person to finally look at me properly in the eye.

Maybe it is too big to ask? But I do hope that this wish would come true one day. Then I can put down the heavy burden that has been hovering over me.

Anyways, something very weird happened today. One of my friend said that Wrathie had called me a 'yuna-wannabe' in one of his sentences when she asked him whether they were the group I was originally with. I got offended and took it the wrong way and became emo for the rest of my school periods. I cleared it up with ning and felt much better; Wrathie didn't mean it in a 'mean' way. In fact, he was like...saying jiayou for me. (to understand, the whole sentence must be read.) I apologized to him and I felt like crying lol. Why did I ever doubt my friends? Maybe cuz my secondary school friends hurt me before and I'm still living a hellish life there, so I'm just stereotyping everybody into the same category.

Wrathie is a nice guy. (deeeeeeep deeeeeep inside. Cuz he's as sadistic as ning on the outside. ;_;)

Oh yeah. I promised you guys this.



Haha. Yuna! xD These are only the rings lol. (Pardon the unusual fatness of my hand in this pic.) I'll have to get another bracelet, plus her necklace and earring. Hehe.

The next photo ish scary. So i shall put up a warning sign.

Caution!: Do not see photo if you have a weak heart towards violence and the squishing of aluminium cans!

My cousin is teh violence. You see the can on the right? It is done by me with both hands. (in a kind-of-ladylike manner.) So it is squished in a so-so manner. The can on the left is done by my cousin. She nearly gave me a heart attack when she picked up her can, stared at me, and squished hers with only her right hand and took like...less than 1 sec to flatten it to that state. MY GOD LOL. VIOLENCE. Ahahahahahaha.

But it's like...damn cool. ;_; I must learn how to do that. It'll scare the crap out of people lol.

Lastly, there is the interclass basketball competition trophy that I got by doing absolutely nothing.


Hahahaha. This is the most nonsensical trophy I have ever gotten. It must have pissed Phyllis off to give it to me. Well. It's not that i didn't contribute. It's just that they were too insecure about sending reserves onto the field. Plus both 3A and our class were playing with VIOLENCE on that day...if you ask me. So I was pretty much stunned as well. (and they call themselves girls? o.O Maybe I shouldn't complain...since my cousin ish scary as well. x.x You know...the can squishing thing.)

Alrighty. I wanna go sleep. I have another long day tomorrow.

Also, for the sake of everybody, I've decided to become the best yuna ever! I'll put in even MORE AND MORE effort from now on. (My friend said that she respects me LOL. Cuz I do intensive research and watch videos to adapt to the personality and stuff.)

See ya! ^^



7:33 AM i need you.

{The Mistress of Hell}

Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD

{Faves/Desires/Wishes}

-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"

{Vengeance will be served}


{People from hell}

Ning -My beloved guardian +
Geelyn -Illusioned existance +
Min -Forever Friends +
Li sen -Kind at heart +
Frank -The guy who posts once a month. +
Feifei -A dearest cousin +
Daniel -^^ +
Jiale(a.k.a Jade) -A precious friend +
Hannah -She called me the 'dark side'. xD +
Eleanor(a.k.a Elie) -A precious friend +

{Memories...}

March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
October 2007
November 2007
January 2008
March 2008
May 2009

{Credits}

Codes: Dynamic Drive
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