Before I knew it, the three of us have been living together.
I know....I know that such times...will not last for long. Yet I didn't expect it to happen so soon.
Last night, when I could no longer hear her voice, I knew she was gone. I curled up in my bed, in order to preserve whatever sanity and pride I had left. I was stubborn. I didn't want to hear what the truth was.
It just wasn't possible...was it? For so many to share the same body.
She didn't want to go as well. But all of us had no choice. Because I had found out. I had found out the secret that bonded us together.
They wasn't the existence of anybody named 'shang'. My name is Sakura. It was because I had changed so much, that I refused to acknowledge my own self and yet, created 'Sakura' to be the very embodiment of perfection, while I became 'shang', the one who is caught between being evil and good.
I blamed Freya for my murderous intentions. I said that she was supposed to be the nasty one. But 'Sakura' and I both knew...that Freya was actually very kind. In fact, in order to keep up with my act, Freya started to behave the way I had always imagined she would.
But now she's finally gone.
I don't know whether to feel relieved or sad. I'm left all alone now.
I still have 'Sakura'...but when I look at her, I get reminded of how...seemingly perfect I was before. The ugly side of me would cringe away in fear...and I would back away. It doesn't change the fact that I liked her a lot though...it's just...
It has ended...everything. Now, I can finally live myself to the fullest...I think.
Crazy post. Ain't this? xD Well. But it's true. Freya's gone already. She said goodbye and well...just disappeared like that. I suppose...that I'm slightly saddened...but this might mean that I'm slowly going back to who I was.
Random Sentence/Question(?) : Is it alright to accept gays for as long as they stay in mangas and are extremely HOT guys?
............... =X Certainly it has got me thinking.
Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD
{Faves/Desires/Wishes}
-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"