The lightning flashed overhead. The thunder boomed.
"I hate you. I hate you." She muttered as she covered her ears with her hand to block out the sound.
Bastard.
Her eyes fluttered open and she awoke with a start. Clutching at her chest with her right hand, she gasped for air.
"Not that dream again."
She hugged her legs and curled up.
Not you again.
She knows she hates him. She knows that she'll never forgive them.
She knows very very well...that she will never EVER get over it.
It's her secret. Deep inside of her, the seeds of anger, resentment and vengeance had already been sowed since the day he betrayed her.
"I told you...I told you not to do it...but you..." She shut her eyes tight.
"You get what you deserve."
"You die a slow...lonely...and painful death."
"This is all your fault."
"Your fault. Your fault. Your fault!"
If only she could sleep. If only she could stop hating herself.
This is not the end. _______________________________________________________________
I tried to unleash something inside of me. Like...letting go and stuff. Since I was listening to an emo song by Linkin Park, I unleashed some weirdo part of me. Then I just kept writing and writing till my fingers stopped. o.O"
Weeeeird.
Well. I actually wanted to blog about ning and Ian's day at my house...or the stuff I did today...but...I just don't feel like writing...
But yeah...maybe it's cuz i've been having nightmares lately. I don't know why, but i'll wake up feeling frightened or crying. Like...there really was tears. It's really freaky.
And then...nightmares + ning and ian = something from a long time ago.
It was really disturbing. I'm afraid that the nightmare would come true.
But I can't say it here. What if I accidentally curse someone to death? x.x
Horrible. Terrible. Vegetable.
I'm going to bed now. I do hope it isn't any freaky dream again. __________________________________________________________________
Artist: Linkin Park Song: What I've Done
In this farewell There’s no blood There’s no alibi ‘Cause I’ve drawn regret From the truth Of a thousand lies
[Pre-Chorus:] So let mercy come And wash away What I’ve done
[Chorus:] I'll face myself To cross out what i’ve become Erase myself And let go of what i’ve done
Put to rest What you thought of me While I clean this slate With the hands of uncertainty
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
For what I’ve done I start again And whatever pain may come Today this ends I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!!
Name: Sakura Rikami
Birthday: 15th June
Location: In the deepest depths of hell
Age: Sure...I'll tell you if you come to hell with me. xD
{Faves/Desires/Wishes}
-I just want someone to release me from my hell.
-Cosplay costumes?
-An Ipod. (I wanna listen to songs!)
-Comics. LOTS of comics.
-Lazy to write the rest...^^"